Holidays are for wasting time, you can't worry about anything. If the purpose of holidays is to be productive, then why bother having holidays at all?
That's why I've been such a good sport lately : I'm pretty sure that if 'Holiday Exams' ever exist, then I'll leave the class with A++ in my hands. Procrastination and laziness are the key words here, people. Once you've mastered these 'skills', you can't go wrong with holidays.
And so, I have just given the worst possible advice on how to be a good human being.
UiTM just had to make my holiday go down the drain. Emotions run high, and by 9 am tomorrow, the final exam results from Semester 1 will come out. How I wish it doesn't have to be tomorrow. I'm tempted to deactivate my Facebook and not see my result, but I'm also tempted to do the exact opposite of that. I'm so confused and excited. I'm ridiculously nervous and terrified. I am only holding on to Supernatural reruns on my laptop to keep me calm. But even Dean Winchester and his pretty face can't help me deal with tomorrow.
I might be pleasantly surprised by my result, or I might fail miserably. God knows how much work and effort I have done to actually pass the exams, and the result will, for sure, upset me to the core. But it's only because I didn't do so well. And I know it. I have known it right from the start. Words are just words if no actions are taken. My mouth was only being a motivational instrument, but my brain couldn't have been more stubborn. It didn't wanna cooperate, so I ended up getting low marks for Math, and just okay marks for the rest of the subjects. For the final exams, I worked my ass off to compensate for my terrible attitude toward the past weeks of procrastination and laziness. I played hard but worked little for the whole semester. And I'll pay a terrible price.
Allah help me tomorrow, cos I might not be the only one who is disappointed when I see those 3 numbers.
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