An Impossible Chance To Get

"My boyfriend doesn't love me anymore,". well, at least you have been loved before. you've known what it's like to be cared for. you've known what it's like to be in a relationship. you've known what it's like to know that there's someone who actually like you for you.

but not me. i've never known those things before.

and to those who have just broken up, it's okay to miss him. really, because you were connected to him before. so it's only natural that when he's not there, you'll cringe and snuck a tear because you're alone. but i know, you won't be alone for too long. me? i've been alone for as long as i can remember. you don't know what it's like to be a person that no one likes. and forget those foolish romance paperbacks. the plot is always the same; girl who has never fell in love, met a guy, fell in love with the guy but never thought he would love her back, live happily ever after, the end. and i'll let you know, i adore those foolish romance paperbacks because they gave me a sliver of hope of maybe that it will happen to me too. but because it is pure fiction and nothing else, it will never happen to me. life just isn't a fairytale. and if i'm hoping that a guy i like, likes me back, it ain't gonna happen.

and as much as i hate to admit it, i'm a hopeless romantic. i'm a girl and i love it when a guy cares so much for me and likes me just the way i am. he doesn't care that i'm imperfect. and other girls have met guys like these. which is why i have an irrevocable sense of jealousy towards them. and when they don't seem to care about these qualities, it makes me angry. because they had their chance, when i don't even get any. and then they let it slip away. which makes me wonder what the hell is wrong with them.

and maybe i'm meant to live alone. i just wish i'm given a chance to meet someone who actually adores me for once. i'll use this chance the best i could, till it drifts apart.

i just want a chance.