Confessions

it's hard to say what i wanna say to the other person face-to-face. and i hope that in this post, i'll be able to speak up and just say whatever's on my mind.


Syz, i really miss you. i miss us. i miss our friendship that we've built since 1st grade. i miss all the times we shared together back in the old days where life feels carefree and peaceful. i want us to be close again, playing guitar and doing whatever crazy things that we always do. and you said that "space won't tear us apart". i'm left with nothing and i need someone to hold my back. babe, you're my friend no matter what.
Da, i wish that you could've been more honest with me since we've been friends. i know you have a lot in your mind to say to me, but you're just too chicken to spit it out. believe me, you're doing me a favor if you tell me straight at my face that you don't like me. don't worry, i hate your guts too.
A. Iz, you probably don't know this, but i'm kinda crushing on you. i can tell that you're really sweet. i wish that i'll be with someone like you. but sadly, i don't really stand a chance with anyone. good luck finding love. cos i don't think i will.

you guys won't read this, and you never will. but i'm glad that this is out of my chest. my life is almost at its turning point, where things won't be the same as it used to. i'm now relieving my past, and i'm wishing that it's not over yet. but the truth is, it's over.