Be That Good.

BAH. now i hate myself.
and i am blaming
it on a certain girl who is so fucking talented.

i couldn't help myself for swearing, PLEASE don't say that you're offended by it.

no one can help it, come on, who is actually NICE these days???
anyway, this girl is just sooo good with guitars. she plays really nice. and what's more aggravating is that she can damn well sing. she puts up her vids of covers on youtube. oh, Haley Klinkhammer, i hate you. but for a good reason.

i know, there are a lot of ppl out there that's just the same.
i've never really felt offended by it bfr. so, why now?

bcos i've just started playing the guitar, and i'm not nearly HALF as good as her. i know i can't really hope to be good when i'm just starting, but when can i ACTUALLY be good??? i don't think i ever will. it's not like i have time to practise every single freaking day. and when you get close to playing it for an hour, you'll get bored. and probably be insane. cos it's all about the brain, ppl.

yeah, yeah i shouldn't be sulking and start practising right away. maybe i'm not cut out to be a guitarist. i mean DUHH i'm not really hoping it would become a career of mine someday. but i just want to do something that i am good at. a hobby is good for ya. if you're really good. but if you're not, why bother?

i can't even write a decent song. the song i wrote a few weeks ago was just a bunch of stupid, simple lines that a toddler could write. bummer, eh?

maybe i can be a drummer? yeah, no.