Pretending

Day one without Fatin:that was Tuesday, and, well Tuesday doesn't have anything to do with this. Hah! Anyway, that was tough. it wasn't something that i couldn't endure, though. ugh. who am i kidding, I CAN'T STAND IT! i knew this day would happen but i pretended it never did. i glued a reminder in my head, "oh, Fatin probably had a stomach ache, that's why she's absent. no. big. deal." huh. stupid, innocent Zafirah. if that's what's going on, she would've had a stomach ache EVERYDAY then, fuckface! (i'm insulting myself, that's what i'm doing). so that was quickly put out of my 'brilliant' head. the seat beside me stood vacant and empty. it was as if the chair was waiting for someone to sit on it. so i occupied the chair with my bag, hoping someone was sitting there. "she's probably in the toilet, peeing all day," and then i remembered it ever so clearly. "no one's beside you, dickhead! that's your damn schoolbag." oh. crap. shit. stupid. but after physics though, someone did sat on that fateful chair. a new girl.

great. just what i expected. now i have to make a new friend. lovely. just perfect. ugh, so sorry, the girl's not to blame. it's not her fault she had to
replace Fatin. what a
dopey day.

p/s:today is friday the 13th. sheeeeesh.