gasps

results of sbp can be frustrating. once you got in, you have to make a decision whether to accept or not. and why wouldn't you? it's a once in a lifetime oppurtunity. and when you failed to get in, you'll feel miserable, sad. but don't worry, life goes on. just make sure you live it, not wait for anything to happen. let it flow.

lots of tears after the result. it almost felt like pmr again. i'm one of those who didn't apply for sbp, so i was like "big deal. you didn't get in. stay in school, no problem about that right?" i was being a real jerk, that's for sure. i didn't know what it's like to want a full boarding school oppurtunity. of course, if you want something so badly but found out that you failed to get it, you must feel so....angry and frustrated and deeply wounded inside.

my friends didn't make the cut, either. so i suspect tears from them, esp nik. i was right. so i let them express their regrets alone, not wanting to disturb bcos i didn't even feel the slightest bit of sadness. i mean, of course i feel sad for them, just not the same way. lives are lived, food are being eaten, life still goes on the same way it has been, for me.

i would never understand why being in boarding school is really important. maybe the urge to get out of the house or being away from this suckish school. most of them just picked option 2, i guess. this school does suck, i know. but it's the only option i've got. never mind about that. anyway, you guys will get the chance soon, i hope. even if it hurts to say goodbye, i'm happy for you guys. and congrats to those who did make it. hope you'll succeed in what you're doing. good luck. peace, laters.