In High Spirits

Smarties make me happy :)

"So what, you have a stupid-ass job. Other people in the world are dying from hunger, and are struggling to find a decent job to feed their kids. Give yourself a break. You have everything else to live for. Enjoy life while you are still able to, and be happy. Because you can."

Oh, conscience. That's why you exist.

I have everything else to live for. And I should not take these things for granted. While I'm whining to people about my horrible job, others are probably dying to be in my place. So, I should be grateful.

Right?

The problem is, it's hard to be grateful while you're surrounded by uninspiring people who torment you every second they got. It's hard to keep smiling and not yell at people who are clueless and rude to you. It's hard to resist crying your eyes out when your supervisor yells at you in front of customers because you did something wrong. It's just hard.

But what do you do? Be grateful.
Be grateful of what you have, because compared to some people, you're actually lucky.

I'm sorry that I brought you along to my ludicrous pity party, but I can't help but 'wanting' people to feel a bit sorry for myself. I'm pathetic, I know. But I'm also human. So please, have mercy.

But anyway. Was this really what I'm intending to post? I actually have some warm and wonderful news. I feel so ecstatic to be a part of it. I'm counting the days till it happens. But now here I am, just waiting. And till that day comes, I'll still be here, waiting.

Hold up. I'm starting to be really cheesy. Hell, this is what my job did to me.

But anyway, thank you. I'm one of the top 20 students of SPM 2010 from SMKBTHO 2. Hari Anugerah, I'll be waiting! I met up with Shazana at school. It was just so good to meet up and talk about random things, like we used to. Made me feel like I'm a high school student again. Except, I wasn't in my school uniform, and all the other students were eyeing us with death stares, like "Dude, who invited you in? GTFO" or something like that. Ustazah told us to send in the answer sheet for the awards. Hahaha. That sounded like it's the Oscars or something. But no, not something as grand as the Academy Awards, but we would like to think so, secretively.

It's no secret no more, innit?

Oh well. It's always pleasing to think of what to wear, and talk to your friends on the phone about what colour of shoes you're planning to wear and what shade of eye shadow you're proposing to put on and such. 7th May is still far away, but I'm sure it would be arriving before I know it.

Tick tock. Tick tock.

Hmm, why is the world running so incredibly slow this time?