Just A Tiny Speck

as much as you wanna create a name for yourself in this world, if you ain't got it, you ain't got it. you found something of your interest, and you delve into it. but no matter how good you are, somebody else is better than you. people can say that you have to stop believing other people's better than you. but the reality is, they are. you look into the mirror and you think that no one notices your ability, because you're not the best there is. you're just a tiny speck in the world, and pretty much no one thinks highly of you. your self-esteem took a turn, leaving your restless soul crashing down. your eyes are fierce, because you just want other people to acknowledge you. you almost force those around you to look at who you are and you say "look what i can do! hey, i'm here and i wanna show it to you that i'm good at it too". when people don't listen, don't pay attention, you feel like screaming. now everyone will think that you just wanna seek attention just so people would see your useless ability that they've seen others do better. and then you think that if maybe you could get the hell outta this world, you'll have peace. no one would notice anyway. but you want them to notice. you want people to like you for who you are, to say that you are special. no one is there for you after you've made the decision to be invisible to the world. you realized that no matter what, no one will notice what you're doing to make a difference for yourself. no one cares.