Indefinite

as she gaze at the evening sky, she thinks about the world getting crazier and crazier every second. somehow, beneath all the laughters and smiles, her world is falling apart. and she didn't know it. she has been emotionally unbalanced these last couple of years due to experiencing the unbearable pain of life. she cried herself to sleep every night. but after days of producing too many tears that man couldn't possibly produce, her heart feels numb, number than usual. she has a lot to worry about, but sadness always stays by her side. she doesn't want to tell others about how she feels because she's afraid that no one will understand. she just knows, no one understands. she stands alone, without anyone to hold on to. and whenever she feels like crying, she thinks that tears can't give her what she wants. so she stops and makes sure her pseudo smile is there so that she can face the world without people asking her what's wrong. everything is wrong with her life right now. she just couldn't take all of these problems. she ignores them, so they wouldn't bother her. she's still wondering what to do next. she has to figure it out herself, because no one is there for her.