the first semester exams never get on anyone's nerves. except to the ones that wanna prove that they are smart asses. which, ironically need no proving. because it shows right through every damn paper they take. perfect A's on each one of em. semester tests are always easy, or relaxing as i would call it. no pressure, i guess. then, how come i'm feeling the most pressure i've had on this year's first semester? it's like my future depends on it. if i fail, it's over. maybe it's because SPM is getting nearer and if i fail on one subject, i'll fail for sure on the real exam. there's no turning back to work on my study skills. there's no looking back and thinking "i wished i could do better and not waste my time". there's nothing i can do to stop this world for just a little while so i can pull myself together and achieve what i wanna achieve. i'm so sick and tired of myself and what i didn't do to make myself a better student. it hurts me to look at my exam paper, comparing it with another smart ass's one and fucking wished i could have his marks instead. it just hurts.
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