All Those Moments Will Be Lost In Time, Like Tears In The Rain.

i was looking at my previous posts, from last october.
i really shouldn't have done that.
bcos it brought memories to my head.
memories that i loved, but should be let go.

bcos those memories will hurt me.
even though i loved every single one of it.

"we" used to be close.
we had fun regardless of where we were.
we let go of our sorrows.
and comfort each other.

now, "we" are no more.
something,
something came out.
it became a problem.
and we became apart.
our hearts are not one,
but became little pieces,
broken by spirits of hatred.

i didn't count how many gallons
of tears i've cried bcos i lost my heart,
but i became aware that "we" were
not meant to be.

we are very much alike.
but quite different from each other.
and so, a new chapter of life has begun.

i'll miss that part of my life.
that part where i had a genuine feeling
of freedom in me.
but if i continue pretending to
feel like we can belong together,
i'll be unhappy. all the time.

and those little pieces can't
be glued back together no matter how hard i tried.

so what if it hurts me?
so what if i break down?
i'm just trying to be happy.

even when i'm hurting inside,
my heart has let go of that past.
but the remains will forever be in my heart,
somehow.
somewhere hidden deep inside.


where i can't find it.