boys. naturally, girls can't stop talking about them. there's like a whole section of them. let's see, if you like this one particular boy, you'll talk about everything you know about him. "omigosh, i just caught a glimpse of him!" or "he's right there! omg he looks so hot in that shirt!" or " he's eating the same food as me!" or even "OMG he LOOKED at me!" puh-lease. his eyes could get to anywhere, not just you. don't rush things will ya??
it gets even worse when no guy looks twice at you. like you're unnoticeable. trust me, it ain't nothing to do with how you dress, or who you are. today, it's all about your popularity, or your goddamn looks. beauty, that's all they care about!! and if you got it, flaunt it huh? and it's WORST if you've never had a boy of your own and you're sitting with ppl that are talking about their exes or their beau. "who's you first bf?" is suuuuuch a stupid and uninteresting question i clearly avoid at all times.
this happens to me a lot of times. sometimes, ppl don't pity you if you've never 'experienced' a relationship between two genders. oh, scratch that. actually, they DO pity you, like "oh, i'm sorry you've never had a boyfriend. you know, it's great having one. i'm sure you'll have one soon. if not, in 10 years time,". you know what?? i don't wanna be pitied about something i cannot help! it's really annoying being in a conversation and all you talk about is THAT THING! nobody ever get me involved in this type of conversation bcos they knew i never had one and they just let me listen without asking me anything! seriously, is that the only thing you can talk about??
bcos i wouldn't mind talking about other stuff like books, clothes and music. it's totally interesting and 'safe'. i won't feel insecure or whatever. i'll just be myself. bcos when THAT THING started turning up in a conversation, i tend to keep my head low and stop talking. bcos it's clearly something that's never happened to me and i feel isolated. please, maybe you should keep your love life to yourself. but maybe if someone completely understands me, then i wouldn't mind you sharing your relationship high-lows. it just bugs me not having a boy you, you know?
I'm not saying this because I hate boys. I have brothers, I know how boys act. There's probably someone who likes you but you just don't know yet.;)
ReplyDeleteI've been in your situation once in Malaysia, and then I moved to Sudan*nods*...
Anyone can completely understand ya, only they're just not there with you right now.
Love life is not just the problem isn't it? It's your friends to huh? I bet they only use you for some subject huh? I've been there.
But then, it's GREAT to be different from them, aside the difference and nobody will take ya, you can make yourself popular just by being different from everyone!...Okay so you shouldn't listen to me because I'm a great big idiot and I'm only 12+, but being different makes you UNIQUE you don't have to be one of them, you can be one of us morons who doesn't care what they think and just be yourself!!...Or maybe it's just me :D Hey, I like being different...