A New Year...Great.

<----oh,i love this pic!(taken by me!) miss you two ;(

this is the first time i'm posting an entry since school starts. and i'm not sure if i'm happy about it. why would i? some ppl just don't understand why i seem to think the new year's a bad year for me. well, they're downright freaking nosy bcos they don't know me. so just lay off, okay? just bcos you have had a good headstart of the new year doesn't mean i have to jump for joy too.

this year seems depressing, and frustrating. i feel so lonely, even though there's ppl around me. and those ppl seem like strangers to me. i almost feel outcasted, isolated. i can't stand being away from my real friends. they're just another class away and yet they feel really far, distant. the worst part is that we could only-really talk-for 20 minutes tops. and come on, we spend 15 minutes just to scarf down the food!

it feels weird, not being able to be with them, let alone share classes. i've never felt like this before, and it's like i have to be stuck to them. i gotta see them each day, and it feels like it's been months since i've seen them even though it's been only a day or two. and if i don't, i'll lose myself. i'll go nuts. sometimes i just wanna burst out and scream. we all seem distant from each other. we're leading our lives separately, without involving each other. i'm just hoping that i'm wrong about this.

feel free to think i'm stupid, or if you think i should just move on and get a life. but i don't give a damn. bcos i can't move on, and i do have a life. a life involving my best friends who i care about. and i'm not stupid, either.